'self'

A thought came to me as I stood outside the church this past Sunday. It was before Sunday school had started. I had arrived a little earlier along with the young youth I picked up on the way.  As he handled the hymnal books in the sanctuary, I stood on the front porch of the church and looked out. Wow. 

 

'Self'.  

 

I reminisced when I use to dislike coming to this place. I had no problems voicing that opinion to my parents.  I was perfectly comfortable where we were. I was uprooted and relocated.  Now four years later. Wow.  The summary of the past 4 years would be ‘self’.  For me to stand up and take the leadership role as a Sunday school/youth leader was no problem.  As the oldest did I really have a choice? Well, anyone can do what I did.  Over time I had to realize and see that the Lord had placed me and already equipped for this position that I originally did not care too much for. It was a matter of me taking focus off myself.  I felt at the time why should I be a leader. I should be the one sitting down in the chair and listening right now.  Not the other way around. That thought process was about me though. 

Still in a work in progress.  Amen for the Lord's grace and wisdom he gives us.

-namanis