a pure bride for Christ

these eyes belong to him....
this brain belongs to him...
these arms belong to him....
these legs belong to him....
this.......belongs to him...
that.......belongs to him...
etc........belongs to him...

2 Timothy 2:22


Time to work harder on being a pure bride for Christ.

life

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. Phil. 1:21

Its not about me is it? :-(

i am rich!!!

I have clean water.

I have food.

I have a place to sleep.



-namanis

'self'

A thought came to me as I stood outside the church this past Sunday. It was before Sunday school had started. I had arrived a little earlier along with the young youth I picked up on the way.  As he handled the hymnal books in the sanctuary, I stood on the front porch of the church and looked out. Wow. 

 

'Self'.  

 

I reminisced when I use to dislike coming to this place. I had no problems voicing that opinion to my parents.  I was perfectly comfortable where we were. I was uprooted and relocated.  Now four years later. Wow.  The summary of the past 4 years would be ‘self’.  For me to stand up and take the leadership role as a Sunday school/youth leader was no problem.  As the oldest did I really have a choice? Well, anyone can do what I did.  Over time I had to realize and see that the Lord had placed me and already equipped for this position that I originally did not care too much for. It was a matter of me taking focus off myself.  I felt at the time why should I be a leader. I should be the one sitting down in the chair and listening right now.  Not the other way around. That thought process was about me though. 

Still in a work in progress.  Amen for the Lord's grace and wisdom he gives us.

-namanis

its 3am spring break is over

*sighs*.  Yes my spring break is officially over.  I just got back from having a great evening.  Shame on me for even trying to do school work for the past two days.  LOL.  I had no success.  I literally took one hour to figure out a basic conversion the other day.  The conversion was so simply that it could be compared with me forgetting that there are twelve inches in one foot.  I ended up looking at a previous test to finally jog my memory.  :-p

But yeah, spring break turned out great.  I didn't travel. I might as well have with all the driving I did this past week.  The driving did not bother me a bit.  Everything in the metroplex is so spread out.  The distances is what gets to a person.  But hey way better than some other places that are even further spreadout. 

The days of waking up late are over.

-namanis 

a statement that rings

It has rang before in my head plenty times, but I never actually had a another person tell me. I guess I did not really think others ever thought in that sense. Well here is the statement:

"every good wife does not equal your good wife"

back to the groove

Spring break is still official running.  I still have other things planned such as hanging out with friends, but back to the groove of things.  Back to the studying.  A steel structural system is nothing you can master overnight.  I can hear the test I have coming next Wed. already calling my name. 

What have I done during a spring break when I have no work to do? 

Well, to describe it simple terms.  Bummed out.  Hung out with one of my best friends and with two other friends I have meet recently, for most of break.  Its been great with nothing hanging over my head.  So the Lord provided this experience.  He allowed me to get laid off to be here at this point blogging about it.  This feeling of peace and excitement is indescribable.  I am not worried much about anything.  I have peace.  I am excited and anxious to see my next step, but I can't see it.  Being anxious would be my issue. I literally do not know what I will be doing starting Dec 11.  Since 2001 I have been on the grind.  I had the plans set there.  Like the plans of a building. :-D This is the way you get from the front door to the back exit.  Well, once I get to the back exit on Dec. 11.  I open the door and ....................  Exactly. Nothing.  Who knows. 

To God be the glory. I continue to recall certain things that took place and prepared me for the place where I am now.  My response to those situations, events, etc.  is just as important.  I either chose to let go of 'self' at those points or hold onto 'self'.  I am letting go of self more and more.  If it is unapparent on the exterior through my actions, well than it is definitely showing within my mind and thoughts.  'self' Its the word that makes up selfish.  

It is about me(selfish), or the one I believe created me??

-namanis

the split is done

This will purely be a personal blog now.  All my architecture professional related info will be located at sinaajayi(dot)blogspot(dot)com. So now time to update the resume and include that new blog on it. I think its a great move. Instant portfolio. I think it will definitely separate my resume from typical unlicensed architects resume. I will give a shout out to http://www.ebunoluwa.com/. Thanks for the discussions that has lead me to this.  Hopefully in the near future I will setup my own site. 

Another week is over and here I come spring break. 

-namanis