back to the groove

Spring break is still official running.  I still have other things planned such as hanging out with friends, but back to the groove of things.  Back to the studying.  A steel structural system is nothing you can master overnight.  I can hear the test I have coming next Wed. already calling my name. 

What have I done during a spring break when I have no work to do? 

Well, to describe it simple terms.  Bummed out.  Hung out with one of my best friends and with two other friends I have meet recently, for most of break.  Its been great with nothing hanging over my head.  So the Lord provided this experience.  He allowed me to get laid off to be here at this point blogging about it.  This feeling of peace and excitement is indescribable.  I am not worried much about anything.  I have peace.  I am excited and anxious to see my next step, but I can't see it.  Being anxious would be my issue. I literally do not know what I will be doing starting Dec 11.  Since 2001 I have been on the grind.  I had the plans set there.  Like the plans of a building. :-D This is the way you get from the front door to the back exit.  Well, once I get to the back exit on Dec. 11.  I open the door and ....................  Exactly. Nothing.  Who knows. 

To God be the glory. I continue to recall certain things that took place and prepared me for the place where I am now.  My response to those situations, events, etc.  is just as important.  I either chose to let go of 'self' at those points or hold onto 'self'.  I am letting go of self more and more.  If it is unapparent on the exterior through my actions, well than it is definitely showing within my mind and thoughts.  'self' Its the word that makes up selfish.  

It is about me(selfish), or the one I believe created me??

-namanis